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Out of the Wreckage: The Anatomy of a Glory Encounter

Volume I: The Mechanics of Transformation ​The Internal Shift: From the Carnal Mind to the Spirit’s Overflow ​1. The Taskmaster vs. The Living Water ​The "carnal mind" is a legalistic machine. It functions on a "pay-to-play" basis, telling you that if you don't sit in a specific posture or listen to a specific song, you have lost your connection. This is the Taskmaster. ​The Performance Trap: Striving is the oxygen of the carnal mind. It creates a "blue-in-the-face" exhaustion where you try to force the Presence to appear. ​The Breakthrough Signal: Ironically, the Taskmaster screams the loudest right before the water breaks through. When you feel a sudden surge of "religious guilt" or a list of "do’s and don’ts" hitting you like a monkey on your back, it is usually because a realm of bliss is about to open. ​The Wash: You don’t defeat legalism with better behavior; you defeat it with the Living Water. You lean into the "real wa...
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The Tortoise vs The Hare

  ​ The season is painful. The waiting is painful. Keeping my peace is painful. Even the "not knowing" is painful. This life is truly something else; half the time, you can’t even have a conversation with someone without getting all messed up. It feels like you can’t do much of anything other than sit, drink, and wait on God to show up in a powerful way and set you loose—even if it’s just for a little while. ​When you’re sitting there drinking, you’re just wondering. Half the time, you don’t even know what’s going on. Is it God? Is it not God? Am I drinking the right stuff? Am I praying the right prayers or hearing the right things? I guess it just takes time, as it always has. ​ It has rarely been an instant thing. There is a process to it, but as my mentors keep saying: "Stay in Jerusalem until power comes from on high." It is the strangest life imaginable because it’s so contrary to how the world operates. Everyone moves so fast and so impulsively, yet they aren...

Morpheus's letter to Neo

  I didn't used to be like this This walk CHANGES you alot  I thought something was wrong with me but this is normal.  When you get pulled out of the world you can feel like the crazy one but you're not.  The rest of the world is crazy because they are still decieved.  So, the strategy is to make you feel like you're the crazy one.  It's the potent sorcery of babylon the great.  God raises up deliverers. They look normal, like there's nothing special about them. This looks familiar when you know the same thing was prophesied by Isaiah about the coming mesiah .  Isaiah 53:1-3 AMPC [1] WHO HAS believed (trusted in, relied upon, and clung to) our message [of that which was revealed to us]? And to whom has the arm of the Lord been disclosed? [John 12:38-41; Rom. 10:16.] [2] For [the Servant of God] grew up before Him like a tender plant, and like a root out of dry ground; He has no form or comeliness [royal, kingly pomp], that we should look at Him,...

​The Evidence of Oneness: Reflections on Spirit-Led Transformation

Watching the transformation of those around me has been a profound testament to the power of the Holy Spirit. For years, I have walked this path largely alone, often feeling isolated in my convictions. Recently, however, I have witnessed friends and mentees begin to mirror my mindset and mannerisms—a phenomenon that is not merely behavioral, but a supernatural byproduct of drinking from the same cup of the New Covenant. ​ The Mechanics of Alignment ​ Just as I have found myself echoing the language and mannerisms of my own mentors, I now see those around me reflecting my own growth. This is not the result of self-help or behavior management. Rather, it is the natural consequence of operating from a single source. When we share the same Spirit, we naturally begin to think, speak, and act in alignment. Hearing a friend articulate the very truths I have held for years—or realizing that I am repeating the past or future teachings of my mentors—confirms that this journey is real. It ser...

The Internal Sinai: Confessions from the Trench

The Mask Falls: The Truth about Spiritual Dryness ​Today was horrendous. I felt spiritually dry, distant, and hopeless. For a while, I tried to mask it with "Bible spa" time and scripture reading, but I was just hiding. The truth? I didn't want God’s heart. I wanted my own way. ​The Bible says the carnal mind is at enmity with God; it cannot submit. Finally, I just told the truth: "God, I hate this walk. I don’t want to do this anymore." ​The moment I stopped pretending to be holy and became a "vagabond" at the cross, something changed. Not judgment, but grace. I had to go low to go high. I had to stop being a whitewashed tomb—right on the outside but dead inside—and let the darkest stuff be washed out. ​The Prophet’s Porch: Finding God in the Ordinary ​A few days later, sitting on the porch with a cigarette, I felt that familiar emptiness and anxiety. Then, the wind picked up. I saw white petals blowing, and I realized: God is in the wind. ​I looked a...

The Spirit Realm Is More Real Than We Think

  The spirit realm is very real. It's more real than we may realize alot of times. Angels/demons/spirits  are more real than we think. You can see and experience their presence through your spiritual eyes and senses. I'm sensing warring angels on my behalf. They are cool but intense. A man sent me a prayer about canceling curses demonic bloodline systems from me. He prayed the blowtorch of God over me. I immediately felt this fire and sunk into it shutting off all distractions and getting still. It felt like getting into a hottub, very relaxing at first.  Suddenly I began to pick up on a presence. It came straight out of my tv like an operator from call of duty. I could see him and feel his spirit body. These things are more real than us. They have a real body but they are spirit. When I looked at him I gleaned things immediately like honor and power. It was scary. It freaked me out. I kinda got worked up and lost sight of it as I'm not used to such a real encounter like ...