Shredding the Veil: Warfare, Visions, and the Relentless Pursuit of the Manifest Presence
A Field Guide to Spiritual Survival and Kingdom Authority
Chapter 1: The Masquerade of the Zombie World
This world is nuts, and it’s time we stopped pretending otherwise. This world is crazy, and yes, I do mean absolutely insane. People are out here acting with a form of mental illness—not knowing God, not knowing His power, His glory, His authority, or His intelligence. It’s borderline mental retardation. You can see it all around you: people getting shot over $20, people arguing over nothing all the time, never satisfied, always wanting more. They are fake as hell, wearing a mask all day long, smiling like everything is okay, but probably contemplating suicide every night when they go home.
I have seen the reality of this stuff so vividly before that I was shocked when I got the perspective change. I remember sitting there in my car going, "I can’t believe that this is even legal." It should be illegal for people to even be close to one another because of how dangerous we actually are without the glory of God covering us, without healing, and without deliverance from demons. It’s amazing to me how vulnerable we actually are without God. Most of these people that really hurt other people are incredibly hurt themselves, and they are possessed by demons. They are used by the enemy because they're weak, they're hurt, and they're open for the enemy to come in and use them as a puppet—to give them one of his personalities and put them on a demonic assignment. That's how serial killers get made. It’s not natural; it’s very supernatural.
It amazes me that we are even alive at times and that God doesn’t just let us destroy each other completely. It’s like a common grace over everybody holding us together, somehow saving our lives and patiently waiting for us to change—waiting for heroes to rise up and change others by first changing themselves. Something is really wrong with this world. It’s almost like everybody is a spy or some kind of actor just playing a role every day instead of actually living. People have these false personalities and personality disorders that are very demonic. You should only have one personality, and that’s who God made you to be. But to receive your true identity, you have to commune with the living God, because our identity is rooted in Christ. I’ve noticed that everybody secretly thinks they are god—they act like they are the judge and the jury and their verdict is final. It’s madness.
Chapter 2: The Taskmaster and the Living Water
The "carnal mind" is a legalistic machine. It functions on a "pay-to-play" basis, telling you that if you don't sit in a specific posture or listen to a specific song, you have lost your connection. This is the Taskmaster. Striving is the oxygen of the carnal mind. It creates a "blue-in-the-face" exhaustion where you try to force the Presence to appear.
The breakthrough signal is ironic: the Taskmaster screams the loudest right before the water breaks through. When you feel a sudden surge of "religious guilt" or a list of "do’s and don’ts" hitting you like a monkey on your back, it is usually because a realm of bliss is about to open. You don’t defeat legalism with better behavior; you defeat it with the Living Water. You lean into the "real water" until the voice of performance is drowned out. This is the Mechanics of Transformation. It is not a decorative change but a mechanical one. It is the systematic death of the carnal mind—the part of us that seeks comfort and self-preservation. This is the Divine Filter, where every thought and impulse is passed through the spirit to catch the impurities of the ego. We move from the "Brain" (the seat of logic and fear) to the "Spirit" (the seat of revelation).
Chapter 3: Repentance as a Second Flood
I didn't used to be this way. I used to hang out with everyone; I was more social, more outgoing. But now, I just seek peace and joy most of the day long. This pursuit is addicting. The Bible says God is a consuming fire and a jealous God. He won't settle for just some of you; He wants the whole thing. I’ve never experienced anything like it. No matter how I react in my flesh, He just keeps pursuing me and bringing me back in. There is simply no escaping God.
Something was cured deep within my bloodline. That is the only way to explain why I was able to quit drinking and doing drugs overnight without even trying. The temptation that followed did not overcome me; it was way easier than I ever imagined. When God moves in your life, the things that used to hold you can lose their power in an instant. This is Repentance as a Spiritual Current. In this ministry, repentance isn't a funeral dirge; it’s a Second Flood. It is the mechanical act of siding with the Good News over your own emotions. It is a "sink or swim" reality where you decide that what God says is more real than the wreckage you see in front of you. Grace is not just a safety net for when you mess up; it is the fuel that allows you to change your mind under pressure.
Chapter 4: The Resonance and the Interior Room
The noise of the world is structurally designed to drown out the frequency of the Divine. Most of us live our lives in a state of static—a low-level hum of anxiety, ambition, and routine that feels like "normal." But then comes the moment of Resonance: a vibration that doesn’t originate from your circumstances, but from somewhere deeper. The first note of the wooing is rarely a mandate; it is a frequency. God does not kidnap the soul; He woos it.
To hear the whisper, you must treat your attention like a light switch. You cannot move from the noise of the world to the voice of the Spirit without a deliberate act of disconnection. The "door" is your senses. The "room" is your spirit. You must close the door to the external, and then close the door to the internal—the relentless, analytical chatter of your own mind. The heart is not a passive vessel; it is a structure requiring intentional maintenance. You must clear the "rooms" of your inner life that are currently occupied by idols of comfort, approval, or intellect. When you shift your posture from "distraction" to "intentional waiting," you are essentially building an altar within your own chest.
Chapter 5: The Inconvenience of the Cross
The walk is defined by the Morning Clone—the daily requirement to put on the new man, even when the old self feels like a heavy, repeated script. Sanctification is marked by the Annoying God, who disrupts our schedules, irritates our preferences, and uses small inconveniences as the primary tools for pruning. This is the Lazarus Paradox: we are often called to "stink" and "die" in the eyes of the world so that the glory of the resurrection can be manifest. It is a White-Hot Fire that does not just warm the heart but consumes the "wood, hay, and stubble" of our own plans. The irritation of the cross is not an obstacle to the walk; it is the walk.
We find that the closer we draw to Him, the more "annoying" life becomes. This is because God uses the very things you find most irritating—the difficult colleague, the redundant task, the unexpected delay—as tools of refinement. We have grown comfortable with our "grave clothes"—the defensive patterns, survival mechanisms, and low-level cynicism we use to protect ourselves. To "come forth" is to accept the Divine inconvenience.
Chapter 6: Healing as an Exorcism
We need to get real about what "healing" actually is. True, root healing is more like an exorcism. It feels like it, at least. People think they get healed because they get a new job or a career path, and they contribute that to their healing, but it’s really just a Band-Aid masking the problem. You are being healed and restored deep down in the roots of who you are. You are having your identity restored in Christ.
The Bible says God disciplines those whom He loves, those whom He has adopted into His family. If you aren't receiving discipline and redirection and correction from the Lord, then the Bible says that those people are illegitimate children of God. If God is truly fathering you, He will turn your life around and discipline you and put you in situations to mold you. You reach a point in prayer and deliverance where you have no choice but to go head-first into the death of your flesh. I’ve been in warfare so intense I thought I might physically have a seizure. It was terrifying, but I kept pushing through until finally, a sense of peace washed over me. When you are in that vortex, you feel like you’re going to die. Every thought in your head will scream, but you have to reach the point where you say, "Whatever happens, happens. If I die, so be it." That is the "push through" in prayer.
Chapter 7: The Outlaw Anointing and the Scapegoat Genius
To follow the Spirit is to be "labeled." Jesus wasn't a stained-glass window; He was a criminal in the eyes of the establishment. When you are truly anointed, you often won't "look saved" to the religious. You might look like a "loser" or a "heretic" because God’s grace doesn't fit into a box of human morality. This is the Scapegoat Genius: like the "bad people on the path" who are actually innocent, the world will hate the light in you without cause. This is part of the "inconvenience"—being misunderstood while you are doing the King’s work.
We all possess an internal attorney—a scapegoat genius—whose primary task is to argue that our stagnation is someone else's fault. The "genius" is not about intelligence; it is about rationalization. It is the sophisticated way we project our internal struggles onto external factors. True "genius" in the Spirit is found in the simplicity of absolute accountability. You stop asking why your circumstances are so difficult and start asking what those circumstances are exposing in your heart.
Chapter 8: The Holy Disruption and Warfare
When God prepares to move you into a new season, He doesn't always ask for permission. He begins a work of "Holy Disruption." This feels like a giant meteor heading for your life. It looks like wreckage, but it is actually the clearing of ground. This isn't a metaphor; it’s an actual fight.
The Sword of Refinement: The Word acts as a surgical blade, separating your carnal nature from your spiritual identity. It cuts out the bitterness to make room for the Glory.
The Shield of Faith: Faith is the only thing that can extinguish the "worthlessness" arrows. When the voice says "I'll kill you," the Shield says "I am the son."
You can really look foolish walking alongside of God doing what you see him do in your spirit. As it is written, the wisdom of this world is foolishness to god and vice versa. I've had times when God anointed me to act very differently than I normally would around certain individuals. I could just tell that an immature Christian or somebody with a religious spirit would have thought that I wasn't even saved the way that I was acting. It doesn't necessarily look good on the outside, but god sees the heart and what you do in secret, he rewards you for.
Chapter 9: The Priority of Love
God’s not sitting around rushing people or focused on being right alone; you don't have to be right about everything. You don't have to prove a point. You don't have to make somebody understand something—you have to love them. All of your dealings outside of love have to be dealt with by God. You have to be taught how to love. He doesn't want to make people understand everything right away; he doesn't want to fill people with a bunch of head knowledge, he wants to get them full of love. Love is more important, love is more powerful.
When you drink to the overflow, the presence of God is so abundant it bypasses the analytical mind and pours directly into the soul. In this state, one becomes a scapegoat genius, bearing the weight of communal friction yet possessing the supernatural insight to navigate it through the lens of the cross rather than the intellect.
Chapter 10: The Lightning Duck and the Divine Humor
One of the most profound encounters I’ve had happened at 2:00 PM on a Saturday, in the middle of a battle with my own mind. I had spent hours trying to "hear" God. I was doing that thing we all do—avoiding my own thoughts, cleaning up my mental act, and trying to be "holy enough." I expected the Voice to be thunderous. Then came the override.
In an instant, God bypassed all my religious performance and dropped a vision into my mind: A Lightning Duck. For anyone who doesn't play Path of Titans, it’s a creature from a game I love. It was the last thing in my plans. It wasn't "spiritual" by any human standard. But the moment I saw it, the atmosphere in the room shifted. I realized God knows my hobbies; He isn't "too busy" managing the cosmos to share in my trivial joys. While I was worried about my "worthiness," He was looking for a way to make me laugh. The vision broke the "religious seal" on my heart. I started laughing, and in that laughter, the anxiety didn't just leave—it dissolved.
Behind the humor of the "Lightning Duck" is the Kavod—the heavy, sacred light of His face. It is a "pure whiteout" of holiness that physically alters your environment. When you see it, you realize you aren't just reading a book; you are in a Matrix-level reality where the truth is more real than the ground you walk on.
Chapter 11: The Silver Liquid and the Matrix
We often assume that the physical world is the primary reality, but when you dwell in the overflow, you begin to perceive that the material world is a thin, shifting veil—a "Matrix" of illusions. These illusions tell you that your value is in your production. To live in the manifest presence is to see the "Silver Liquid" of the Spirit underneath the veil.
In the ocean of the Divine, motion is life. I am the Shark. A shark dies if it stops moving because it requires the constant flow of water over its gills to breathe. Similarly, the soul must realize that the Presence is not a destination where you "park" and stagnate. You are no longer distracted by surface storms because your life is anchored in the deep. This is the "single eye" mentioned by Christ—a vision so locked onto the Father that the competing interests of the world cease to exist.
Chapter 12: The John Wick Encounter
About six years ago, I sat down with my wife after work and we put on John Wick. I started to burn and got really nervous. Towards the middle to the end of the movie, John Wick transported out of the TV and into my spirit, spinning around like a tornado, shooting in every direction. This was the drunkest I’ve ever been in the spirit. It felt so good that I’m pretty sure I was physically moaning.
But God had been subtly telling me for years that I was going to be like Keanu Reeves in the spirit. There was a time a few years back when I was in my car going to work. There was a girl—a redhead in a nice car with the top down—in front of me. She kept looking back constantly in her mirror at me, locking eyes with me. She was attractive and all, but I just thought it was so weird because something was going on that was more than I could understand. I could actually feel this spiritually. It wasn't normal for me for women to look at me like this. I kept thinking, "God, is this you?" It had that scent all over it—like it had something to do with the spirit and not the natural. I'm pretty sure she thought that I was somebody that I wasn't.
I followed that girl for several blocks, through every stoplight, with her staring at me like that. Finally, I stopped at the gas station. When I walked in, everybody in the entire station turned and stared at me. One guy straight up asked, "Are you Keanu Reeves?" God showed me that the characters he plays—the combat, the drama, the intensity—mirrored my spiritual reality. That is how WICK Ministries came to be. God showed me that I am John Wick in the spirit, and my ministry would operate with that same level of supernatural intensity to put a dent in hell.
Chapter 13: Master Shredder and the Divine Filter
Sometimes the water isn't a gentle stream; it’s a high-pressure jet. When "Master Shredder" is on the way, the Holy Spirit comes to tear away soul ties and circulating thoughts that have remained unresolved for years. It is uncomfortable, it is "shredding," and it can feel like a fight. But the result is a peace that mind-blows the people you pray for. This is the "John Wick" spirit work—fighting demons off of people and clearing the way for their salvation.
The Divine Filter and the Thick Darkness work together. In the economy of the spirit, we often mistake darkness for absence. But Scripture reveals that God chooses the dark cloud as His pavilion. The cloud is not a wall to keep you out; it is a veil to keep the "old man" from interfering with the work of the Spirit. When God approaches in the "dark cloud," the carnal mind experiences Holy Irritation. The brain is wired for logic, and when the cloud descends, the brain loses its bearings. This is the Filter intentionally blinding the natural eyes so the spirit can begin to perceive the manifest presence.
Chapter 14: The Prophet’s Porch and the Heart of Stone
Today was horrendous. I felt spiritually dry, distant, and hopeless. The truth? I didn't want God’s heart. I wanted my own way. The moment I stopped pretending to be holy and became a "vagabond" at the cross, something changed. Not judgment, but grace. I had to stop being a whitewashed tomb and let the darkest stuff be washed out.
A few days later, sitting on the porch with a cigarette, I felt that familiar emptiness. Then, the wind picked up. I saw white petals blowing, and I realized: God is in the wind. I looked at a windchime and, by faith, I "drank" from it. I saw an angel passionately playing that chime like a harp, trying to set me free. Our hearts are that rock. Hard. Stony. But God promised to remove the heart of stone and give us a heart of flesh. Moses struck the rock and physical water came out. In the New Covenant, God strikes Jesus or the living rock to soften our hardened hearts so the Living Water can overflow from the inside.
Chapter 15: The Kitchen of Heaven and the Sonship Supply
We are moving past the "milk" of basic belief. The "Kitchen" is a place of celebration and preparation. It signifies that it’s time to eat Spiritual Meat—deep truths that provide rest and hydration for the dry soul. You are not a servant begging for crumbs; you are a son at the table, being fed by the Father so you can go out and "shred" the darkness off of others.
This walk changes you. It pulls you out of the world until you feel like the crazy one—but the world is the one that's deceived. You are a deliverer. You might look "normal" or "uncomely" like the root out of dry ground, but you are carrying the fire of the living God. You are loved. You are chosen. You are being equipped. You are being loved for the first time in your life.
Chapter 16: The Kingdom Age and Joel's Army
We are moving out of the "Church Age" and into the Kingdom Age. The 144,000 is not just a number; it's an army—Joel’s Army—marching in rank, not breaking stride. Jesus isn't just coming in the clouds; He is coming out of the "cloud of witnesses" (that’s us) with trumpets blaring. Spending time with God is like building a Sun inside of you. It’s the process of Christ being "formed" in you (Galatians 4:19).
The spirit realm is very real. Angels, demons, and spirits are more real than we think. I’ve seen warring angels on my behalf. A man sent me a prayer about canceling curses and prayed the blowtorch of God over me. I immediately felt this fire and sunk into it. Suddenly I began to pick up on a presence. It came straight out of my TV like an operator from Call of Duty. I could see him and feel his spirit body. I gleaned things immediately like honor and power. Later on, I found out it was my mentor's spirit paying me a visit and that's how he looked in the spirit. Eternal life is an ACTIVE dimension full of life, missions, learning, and warring.
Chapter 17: The Sent vs. The Went
Over many years, I have learned that there are Sent ones and there are Went ones. The "sent" are those who wait on God and seek Him until they encounter and know Him accurately. If you believe you are being led by the Spirit, but your life isn't producing the fruits of Love, Joy, and Peace, you "might wanna check yourself before you wreck yourself."
I have struggled with the process of waiting for years. I’ve had to learn that "spiritual" does not always mean "God." I have had days where I felt a heavy "on-ness"—a pressure to perform, telling me to do this or that while masquerading as God. I call these Performance Spirits. They provide a checklist of "dos and don’ts" that never produce peace. If I can remain aligned with Jesus, external circumstances lose their weight. The reward is just more eternal life in the spirit and just something different than every day routine.
Chapter 18: The Tortoise and the Hare
Some seasons are painful. The waiting is painful. Keeping my peace is painful. Half the time, you don’t even know what’s going on. Is it God? Is it not God? I guess it just takes time. "Stay in Jerusalem until power comes from on high." It is the strangest life imaginable because it’s so contrary to how the world operates. Everyone moves so fast and so impulsively, yet they aren't actually getting anywhere.
I often get the impression that in all this waiting, I am being equipped for what is coming. You really have to keep your mind glued to your belly to keep your sanity. Some days you don't know what to do. But somehow, this still beats the chaotic function of the world. You always have hope. Sometimes I think the story of the tortoise and the hare is really about God versus the world. He has His own pace. I’m learning to be consistent at His speed, guarding my peace, and staying as connected as possible.
I didn't used to be like this. This walk CHANGES you a lot. The strategy of the world is to make you feel like you're the crazy one. It's the potent sorcery of Babylon the Great. But you are not forgotten. You are not abandoned. You are chosen to wake up. You are loved. You are loved. You are loved.
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